My voice is raspy. Doctors labeled me a "screamer" from babyhood and apparently this created "nodules on vocal chords." Many people say I sound like Lauren Bacall, which might be a compliment, but not for a 4 year old.
After teaching yoga, I discovered Kirtan music. This type of devotional chanting is said to heal and even bust open your heart. It all sounded too California for this East coast gal. Then I was given a CD. Good stuff! Mellow yet rich with feeling, warming to my heart.
When I was pregnant with my first child, I attended a Kirtan Camp. At first I did feel out of place, with no music background and definitely NOT a singing voice. 45 minutes would pass, simply chanting, SITA RAM. It was fulfilling and fun for both the baby and me. The added bonus was a new comfort with my voice, and a true desire to share it. WOW!
The final day, all students were invited lead a12-hour Kirtan, open to the public. Super nervous and questioning, how would people respond to me? This isn't about me though, it is about sharing the divine. So, I leapt and led – eyes closed of course – a large group, some friends, mostly strangers. After camp, life with a new baby took over and my singing audience was the safest, my son. Singing became moments of freedom for me.
Now chanting is a part of my yoga classes and household. It is sunshine when my children run thru the house chanting. My students say, "it is like a lullaby in shavasana when you sing to us." Me, with the one with the hoarse voice, really?
AUTHOR: Bex Urban
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