[Women are amazing. What we can accomplish with our minds, bodies and spirits is limitless. Often all we need is a little inspiration. That’s why Splits59's The Burn welcomes guest blogger, Elise Fletcher an incredible woman who has overcome obstacles, obesity and abuse to reclaim her body and create a beautiful and healthy future for herself and others. – TEAM SPLITS59]
At the age of 15, weighing 256 lbs I tried Weight Watchers. I combined exercise and Weight Watchers getting down to about 204…then I stopped. I reached a certain point and gave up with the thinking “I’ll never get there.” I didn’t give myself credit for how much I’d achieved. Instead I was thinking of what I hadn’t achieved. Self-defeating negative thoughts were my downfall. The pounds came back - plus more; and I was back to where I started. I was always overweight even as a child in 2nd grade. I would say what contributed to this was my family situation. I grew up as an only child in an abusive family. I never was really taught good eating habits and confided in my food to help me get through the pain (didn’t realize this until I was 22). One of our favorite places was a pizza shop where I would order a whole small pizza – for myself and at that stage I probably was only 10 or 11 years old. The period of time between 15 and 18 I experienced a lot – my parents split, my grandmother and uncle passed away, I stopped contact with my father and I lost the house I had grown up in for 12 years of my life. It was up and down some days good others bad and I relied on food not for nutrition; but comfort, a friend, a pillow… even boredom.
After high school I attended a community college for a year and was completely miserable both inside and outside. That January I joined the YMCA and decided I no longer wanted to be overweight, again. From January to September I lost 40 pounds; I was at the same point I had reached three years previously. That September I went off to school in Boston, excited about a new chapter and this great path I was on. I was feeling good about myself. Things then went downhill when I started comparing myself to all the other girls and friends I had made. I figured I would always be ugly and fat and no guys would ever give me the time of day so I gave in – and gorged with my college meal card. I’d have everything I wanted and consumed my days, not with school work but with what I was eating next. Once again I’d had it in me but kept getting in the way of myself! [Read Part 2 of the Transformation of Elise next week!]
AUTHOR: Elise Fletcher