There is more to life than work. There is more to one’s spirit than what they accomplish at work, although it is hard to see past that when you are consumed by what you do.
Let me preface this by stating CLEARLY, I love my job, I am the luckiest girl in the whole f’in world to do what I do everyday. But let’s get real, some days are better than others. A little background…I have been full throttle in the corporate America world for the past eight years, I haven’t had a moment to catch my breath since graduating college. But I have accomplished so much in this time. Part of this work obsession is just part of my personality…drive, drive, drive and drive some more and then, of course, to drive faster. I know for a fact I dove deep into work because I felt success, pride and accomplishment in this arena in my life, far more than I did in my personal life, well, until now…until recently. It is hard to alter that paradigm in which you have been accustomed to for years but when someone steps into your life with an abundance of love and selflessness it is even harder to ignore that.
I tried to hold onto my work first, love second mentality but this powerful, fulfilling and pure love is too beautiful to push aside. I have said this countless times…I am imperfect, but man, when someone tells you that you have behaviors that need to be addressed, no matter how it is said or who delivers the message it stings like hell. Let’s just say I have been stung by the an enormous feedback hornet on all accounts and I am still standing, still breathing but this time I am reacting differently. I know I have to be better at certain behaviors, and I own that, but what I have done in the interim is push away the love, the pure love that is before my very eyes because I am all consumed in what I felt my success was associated to…my work.
Work to live or live to work? I have lived for work and I am sure it will take some time to change that energy completely because I do love my job and everything about it…..but I have this love, this rock, that is just as fulfilling as work. I just have not opened my eyes to it until recently.
Funny how some situations bring clairvoyance…but sometimes we are too late. Sometimes we open our eyes after the fact and then it becomes a life lesson, a tough one, one that stings, but a lesson nonetheless. Letting feedback or set backs keep me down would be too easy. I never chose the easy route. I tend to thrive in difficult times, that is my comfort zone. There is no need to harbor the past or feedback or anything that takes you away from your path of being the BEST version of yourself. Just keep your head up and keep moving. I am not giving up on me. I am not giving up on being a better communicator and I am certainly not giving up on love. So, as life, the sun rises and the sun sets. I will be working on being the best version of who I am. the purest version of who I am…that is all we can really do…take chances, made bold decisions, let people in when we are down on ourselves and BELIEVE that with a pure heart and clear mind we can enjoy the best of life has to offer.
Time to leap, time to move beyond my past and jump to my future. And this time around I am going to find the balance and work to live.
AUTHOR: Angela Leigh